I have been praying a lot about where God wants me to be. 2 years ago, I felt strongly that God wanted me to run the local teen center, to get it going and help teens who needed a positive environment. I left my job of 11 years and went where He led me. I met some great teens who just needed someone who believed in them. I loved being there. Some days were crazy and hectic, others were quiet and boring. But, for all those times I got to connect with teens who needed a listening ear, it was worth it.
It's basically been 5 months since I was there. Their "restructuring" has gone on longer than it would if they intended to do what needs to be done.
So, lately I've been asking God what He wants me to do. This week, every day I have had some sort of encounter that I would not have had if I was at the teen center. I've been to sports activities where I talked to parents of a potential new youth, I even ran into someone at the grocery store who recognized me from working at the church where her child goes to preschool. She wanted to know more about the youth group for her older son. I've been able to volunteer and connect with youth I wouldn't normally see.
I've been feeling guilty. I love my life right now! I'm home with my family more, I can take time out to write, I've been able to start a "read the Bible in a year" devotional, and I have time to take better care of myself. But, I've been feeling guilty that if the teen center reopens and I don't go, id be abandoning those teens. But, as I was walking my dogs this morning, my best time to think and pray, I felt like He was using these daily things to tell me it's ok. I feel like He is telling me to take this time to focus on the things that I am doing and to look at all of the potential around me. So, that's what I am going to do-continue looking for ways to share God, not for what I'm not doing but what I can do.
I just have to keep listening to Him. I'm pretty sure He will let me know if I'm on the right track. For now, I will enjoy the time I have to connect more with my youth, spend more time with my family, and take care of myself spiritually, emotionally, and physically.
So, where was God today? He helped me see what I think He has been trying to tell me for awhile now.
Blessings,
Jennifer
It's basically been 5 months since I was there. Their "restructuring" has gone on longer than it would if they intended to do what needs to be done.
So, lately I've been asking God what He wants me to do. This week, every day I have had some sort of encounter that I would not have had if I was at the teen center. I've been to sports activities where I talked to parents of a potential new youth, I even ran into someone at the grocery store who recognized me from working at the church where her child goes to preschool. She wanted to know more about the youth group for her older son. I've been able to volunteer and connect with youth I wouldn't normally see.
I've been feeling guilty. I love my life right now! I'm home with my family more, I can take time out to write, I've been able to start a "read the Bible in a year" devotional, and I have time to take better care of myself. But, I've been feeling guilty that if the teen center reopens and I don't go, id be abandoning those teens. But, as I was walking my dogs this morning, my best time to think and pray, I felt like He was using these daily things to tell me it's ok. I feel like He is telling me to take this time to focus on the things that I am doing and to look at all of the potential around me. So, that's what I am going to do-continue looking for ways to share God, not for what I'm not doing but what I can do.
I just have to keep listening to Him. I'm pretty sure He will let me know if I'm on the right track. For now, I will enjoy the time I have to connect more with my youth, spend more time with my family, and take care of myself spiritually, emotionally, and physically.
So, where was God today? He helped me see what I think He has been trying to tell me for awhile now.
Blessings,
Jennifer
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