I am a caregiver type. I am not a good patient. When someone else is hurting, I try to do whatever I can to make them feel better. When I am sick or in pain, I become a big baby. And when I don't know what's wrong, I am overcome with anxiety. The Internet doesn't help since it always brings up the worst case scenarios. But, still, I continue searching, hoping I'll figure it out.
So, lately, that has been on my mind. Several strange, seemingly unrelated, symptoms have caused me to resort to Internet searches. I did actually go to the doctor, the hospital, and then the pharmacy for lots of new meds. A possible diagnosis was given with the promise of further results after testing. Then, more symptoms came the next day. So, after several days of leg pain, weakness, and months of fatigue, shortness of breath, and random swelling in random places, I am still at a loss and still waiting for a firm diagnosis. And, I'm probably driving my nurse practitioner crazy. But, I'll see her again in 2 days to hopefully find out more.
So, as much as I like to be busy doing things all of the time and as much as I like to take care of things, I am realizing sometimes that's not possible. That's frustrating to me. Midday naps are relaxing when they are used as the epitome of luxury but annoying when they are necessary!
So where was God today? He's with me, helping me adjust and with the health care providers taking care of so many people who depend on them.
Blessings,
Jennifer
So, lately, that has been on my mind. Several strange, seemingly unrelated, symptoms have caused me to resort to Internet searches. I did actually go to the doctor, the hospital, and then the pharmacy for lots of new meds. A possible diagnosis was given with the promise of further results after testing. Then, more symptoms came the next day. So, after several days of leg pain, weakness, and months of fatigue, shortness of breath, and random swelling in random places, I am still at a loss and still waiting for a firm diagnosis. And, I'm probably driving my nurse practitioner crazy. But, I'll see her again in 2 days to hopefully find out more.
So, as much as I like to be busy doing things all of the time and as much as I like to take care of things, I am realizing sometimes that's not possible. That's frustrating to me. Midday naps are relaxing when they are used as the epitome of luxury but annoying when they are necessary!
So where was God today? He's with me, helping me adjust and with the health care providers taking care of so many people who depend on them.
Blessings,
Jennifer
Praying for you!!
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