Message

I’m not sure how this will translate in print. If you’d rather hear this, here is the link. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aEduYcXWYjc

This is the message I shared at my church this morning.

“Where’s the Party?!”

Good morning! I’m Jennifer Casper and I guess I should never say never! I said this is something I would never do, but here I am up here. I’m much more comfortable sitting on the floor in a circle with some kids or teens, so, we’ll see how this goes!

For those that don’t know, I went to Spain at the end of September and walked the French route of the Camino de Santiago. If you walk the whole way, it starts in St Jean Pied de Port, France but I started in villa Franca, Spain and walked to Santiago de Compostela, where it is said that St. James is buried. The pilgrimage takes 30 to 40 days and I did the last part of it, walking 120 miles over 10 days, 8 of them in the rain, and staying in hostels along the way. I went with a group of just over 20 people, all strangers except for two who I knew before going. It was an awesome experience and I’m grateful I had the opportunity to go! (Shameless commercial moment- on December 1st I’ll be talking about my experience after the service so if you’re not tired of hearing about it after this morning, come on December 1st to hear more!) So, back to today! 

When Pastor Ericka asked me to talk today, she told me the scripture would be the Prodigal Son. Then she asked me if I would connect the Prodigal Son to my walk on the Camino. I laughed and told her that probably every conversation I have for the next year will include talking about my walk on the Camino in some way! The more I thought about it, the more I realized how related my pilgrimage was to the story of the prodigal son. 

The prodigal son left not knowing exactly what would happen, but expecting great things. When he left with his inheritance, he expected to have a great time, I also left for the Camino not knowing what would happen but expecting great things. Luckily, there were several big differences in our journeys. While the prodigal son lived lavishly and squandered his wealth, part of the focus on my camino was living simply and not spending what wasn’t necessary. Unlike the prodigal son who didn’t experience great things until he got back home, I experienced great things along my journey. 

In Luke, we read that the prodigal son comes to a point where he decides to humble himself to his father. Luke 15:17 says “he came to his senses”. And then he said, “I will set out and go back to my father and say to him Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you.” It’s at this point that grace can be received… that unconditional love can be accepted! He had to be humbled, to figure out the blessings that he could experience! 

I had a few humbling experiences on the Camino. I’m used to being pretty active and fit. But, in February, I fractured my back and so my body isn’t quite up to speed, so to speak. On day 1, I was the last of our group to arrive at our destination, long after most. Most of the day I was frustrated with myself that I was struggling. Somewhere along the way, between day one and the middle of day two, I realized that my journey wasn’t about being the fastest or the best, it was about experiencing every moment that I could, enjoying the journey. 

Actually,I realized that my injury was a blessing! Our camino guide had told us before we started to walk, that the people who don’t enjoy the walk are typically runners who are more focused on getting to the destination as fast as possible. If not for my injury, that would have been me! I needed to be humbled to experience the blessings that the Camino had to offer! 

Before I left on my pilgrimage, I wondered what kind of religious experience I would have. Even while on my trip, I kept waiting for something, searching for something, a lightning bolt, a neon sign, some big spiritual experience. It would be a great thing that I could come back and tell everyone about. I saw so many beautiful things- green pastures, beautiful mountains, blue skies, (and lots of rain!)- that all assured me of God’s existence. What an incredible artist He is! I saw so many beautiful old churches and was in awe of these buildings that have been around for centuries to worship the same God that I am worshiping all these years later! How amazing is that?! The worship experiences in the beautiful cathedrals was so inspiring even though I didn’t understand everything that was being said in Spanish.

But, while I had lots of time to walk and think, there were no big earth shattering discoveries along the way. I came to some realizations, as I’m sure the prodigal son did when he was off on his adventure. For one thing, I felt more peace than I had in a long time. I realized that I need to be more intentional about having my time each day- going for daily walks and letting my mind reset. Sometimes that means listening to a scripture or devotional and sometimes that means talking to God. Other times I listen to an audiobook and just shut my brain off for a bit. And, while several realizations helped me when I came home, a part of me wished I’d had some sort of big awakening moment. 

After I got home I went hiking with my friend who went on the Camino with me, we both had the same thoughts about not having earth- shattering God moments, but realized that our time on the Camino was the closest thing to experiencing what it would be like if everyone was trying- really trying- to live like Jesus! Everyone I encountered on the Camino seemed to be living this out. Putting others' feelings ahead of their own while still enjoying the moment. We helped and supported each other, and felt the love of others supporting us. Loving one another was just a part of life, not something we had to work hard on. Everyone who lived along the Camino route was so loving and encouraging! We saw signs actually painted on people’s houses and in yards encouraging us to keep going or telling us which way to go. The people at the hostels and restaurants were so welcoming and were such a wonderful sight after walking 15 miles in the rain! Each day felt like spending time at the prodigal son’s welcome home party! 

Luke tells us that the father told his servants to bring the best robe, bring the fattened calf, and said “Let’s have a feast and celebrate!” What a welcome home party they had! When we think of ourselves as the prodigal son, and the father as our heavenly father, I love envisioning the celebration He has when we turn to Him! I also think about this example as the way we are supposed to treat others- to welcome and celebrate everyone who comes our way! 

Looking back, when I picture my walk, it isn’t the beautiful scenery or the great food, or even the rainy walks ……. The first thing that comes to mind is the people I met along the way. Everyone on the Camino has a bond, a sense of connection like I’ve never felt before- thousands of people on the same path, sharing the same experiences. I had some very deep conversations about joy, sadness, grief, and, of course, rain! Some of the people I met, I talked to and then never saw again. Others, I’m sure, will be lifelong friends! But, the common thread between us all was openness, a sense of welcome, kindness and love. Nobody was judged- it didn’t matter what nationality, what sexual orientation, or what anyone had done in their past. What mattered was that they were there walking right then. They showed up and were welcomed.

Luke 15:2 tells us Jesus told this parable in response to the Pharisees and teachers of the law complaining that he welcomes sinners and eats with them. He wants everyone to know that this is what we’re supposed to be doing. We’re supposed to be connecting with everyone, building relationships with people no matter how alike or different they are from us. Everyone we encounter, who shows up, should be welcomed.

The prodigal son didn’t find great things until he got home. But, what we found was the same! Relationships! Unconditional love, welcoming people- family and friends, and strangers. This is how God’s love is- how He wants us to treat others! What I’m missing now is experiencing a world where everyone is living like Jesus showed us, where everyone naturally followed His greatest commandment, to love one another. So, I need to do what I can to be able to love and show others by example- to help others experience a welcome party, no matter who they are! 

So, where is God leading you to host a party? Last week, Pastor Doreen talked about walls and gates. It got me to thinking. When people walk through the gates to somewhere new, what do they experience? Do they feel the unconditional love that I felt on the Camino, that the prodigal son felt when he arrived home? What can we do as a congregation to make sure everyone feels welcome when they come in? It’s part of our logo-welcome, celebrate! What can we do- what can you do to make that happen? 

The mission committee is focusing on “community ministry”, an asset based community development project. By focusing on the people, places, and local resources in a 1 mile radius, the area churches hope to come together to create cooperative ministry opportunities. This may be a chance for you to jump in and help serve and show love to some people in our community.

There are always opportunities to serve in the soup kitchen. If you want to be a greeter on Sunday morning, your job would literally be to welcome everyone who walks in!  

As most of you know, I work with the tweens and teens here. When we talked about what is important to them about church, connecting to the congregation almost always comes up! Intergenerational relationships are so important- for all generations! We learn from each other and grow from each other! There are always opportunities to volunteer for Sunday School, tweens, and youth activities! 

Leading tweens and youth is a lot different from giving a message up here. I’m better at that so today is a little different. Don’t worry! I’m not going to make you do a crazy game where you have to get up and move around and you might end up with whip cream on your head! But, I do have an activity for us to do! The good news is my message is short so you’ll have plenty of time to do it at the end of the service and still be done with church on time! 

Last Sunday, the youth started a mural. In the center are the words “you are loved”. Around it, they are writing words of love and encouragement, scripture about being loved and loving others. We’re inviting you to be a part of this mural by writing your words or messages of love that they will see when they walk into the youth room. When you leave the sanctuary, it will be set up on tables and you’ll have an opportunity to write or draw on it. Show them what unconditional love and encouragement looks like! Help our youth welcome new teens into their space as they work to make it a place where more teens want to come. 

So, as I close, I challenge us all to allow God to lead us to host this party here, in our congregation… and that means inside the building and when we walk out those doors. Live out our mission to welcome, worship, celebrate, and serve!

Kindness

 It’s been a week since I started posting a daily encouraging meme or quote. I’m finding it really helpful for me so I hope it’s helpful to others, too. I find myself going through Facebook looking for things I can share. When I find one, I save it so I can use it later. I used to find myself “doom scrolling” but now I am scrolling for positive things! That alone has helped my mindset. If I think of this in terms of you put out what you get in, then I will have to keep absorbing positivity in order to continue putting out positive messages.

Wednesday was “world kindness day”. I am guessing it’s a social media holiday, but who cares? I saw a bunch of posts about being kind, doing random acts of kindness, and speaking kind words to one another. Who can complain about that? I’ve decided to make Wednesdays “world kindness Wednesday” and I’ll be posting specifically kindness posts. I’m thinking about doing different things on different days, because that’s the kind of person I am. That’s how my brain works… organizing things. But, we will see what happens.

I know there is a lot going on in this world. I’m not trying to discredit or diminish the situation. But, I also don’t want to give up hope that there are things that we can do to make things better. I think showing kindness, reaching out to those who are marginalized, and finding ways to show support are all really important- especially right now.

For those of you who are expecting me to talk about the Camino, of course I’m going to mention it! :) I’m doing something I never thought I’d do… in fact I’m sure at some point I said I’d never do! I’m doing the message at my church this Sunday! I’ll be talking about the Prodigal Son and my Camino pilgrimage. I might put my message on here sometime next week, but I’m not sure how it will translate to a blog so I’ll have to see. 

I’m also giving a presentation on December 1st which is the first Sunday of advent. I’m thinking about doing and advent focus based on the Camino. Week one is hope, waiting with expectation and excitement. There’s a lot I can say about experiencing this while I was preparing for my trip! So, stay tuned! Or, if you’re in the area, come see me! 

So, keep spreading the light, showing kindness, and we’re going to get through this! ❤️

Blessings

Jennifer 

Light

 I don’t post about politics on social media. Mainly because I don’t think it changes many opinions and I don’t like to see the fighting in the comments. But, there are a few things I feel compelled to share here. 

The day of the election, I felt the stress of it all. No matter what side you are on, the tension of waiting and wondering was there. As much as I tried to avoid checking the numbers, I couldn’t. The stress got to me by the end of the night and I went to bed feeling sick.

The next morning, I started the day by looking at a Facebook group that I cling to for their positivity. I read something that made me realize that no matter what the situation, there are people here who are sad and hurting, scared and upset. So, I shook off my stress and started thinking about who in my world might need encouragement and support. 

I sent some texts and made some calls. Then, I went to work. Luckily, I work with some awesome people and that day, I was working with someone who also has a heart for others. Together, we set up strands of purple lights in the youth area of my church. I have an idea for a mural to add to it saying “you are loved”. It’s not much, but it helped. It was my way of spreading light. I knew that some of my youth would be struggling with the outcome and I wanted to do something to help make them feel a little bit more welcomed and valued. It also helped me process my own emotions. 

Tonight I decided to add to my November gratitude posts on Facebook. Once a day I will share a picture or saying or some type of positive support or encouragement. We’ll see how long it lasts. Today was day 1. I talked about leaving social media, but I’m choosing to stay and work on spreading positivity. I want people to know I support them and that they are loved and valued. I can’t do that if I’m not there. 

Tonight I posted a conversation between Piglet and Winnie the Pooh. By just being there, by listening or just being silent together, sometimes we can be more comfort than trying to find the right words. I also find that by listening, I learn so much more and then can understand so much more. 

So, whatever you believe, no matter what side you’re on, I have to believe you can acknowledge that people are hurting. I have to believe that love and kindness can still exist and I ask everyone reading this to join me in spreading love and light. Look for the people who are hurting and find ways to support and encourage them. Be the light.

So, where was God today? He helped me see what I could do.. that would help others and therefore help me too.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

0, zero, nothing

 Last but not least in my Camino number series, today is 0.

0, zero, nothing, nada… that’s what I would change about my adventure to Spain! I am grateful for the group I went with, the amount of time I was there, where we went each day, and how we spent our time. The weather, you might ask? Nope! It was all part of the adventure! Honestly, the rain didn’t even matter after awhile. We just put on our ponchos and off we went! I had everything I needed and nothing I didn’t need. I’m grateful for all of it!

Now, I hope to continue writing. Let’s see what happens! 

Blessings,

Jennifer 

1 Crazy Thing That Happened When I Got Home

 1 crazy thing that happened when I got home happened a few days after arriving home. I was on call at the hospital where I am a chaplain five nights a week. I only go in when called in, which isn’t often. But, wouldn’t you know it, I got called in one of the first few nights back. 

I answered the phone around 1:30 am. I got up and went to my living room so I wouldn’t disturb my husband or dogs. This would make you think I was awake and aware of my surroundings. Nope! Instead, I was a little annoyed that they were calling me when I wasn’t the one on call! Why would they call me while I’m not even in the country?! Of course, I didn’t let on that I was annoyed and offered to talk to the person over the phone if they couldn’t get in touch with the person on call. Then I explained to the nurse that I was in Spain!! She said she’d get in touch with the other chaplain and we hung up.

I then went into the bathroom and something clicked in my brain… ummm I’m NOT IN SPAIN!!! What did I just do?! Oh no! Then the dilemma was.. do I just go back to bed or do I actually call the nurse back and say “I’m sorry… I’m not in Spain!” Ugh! How embarrassing would that be? Well, let me tell you! I did call her back and I’m pretty sure I confused the switchboard operator who was in the process of contacting the other chaplain! Then, I had to tell the nurse I was not in Spain and in fact would be there in a bit. After that, I had to message the other chaplain, my boss, and tell her not to worry about anything and that I had a good story for her later.

When I arrived, I told the nurses at the nurses station and everyone had a great time with my story. As I was leaving, I heard them saying “That was hilarious! I’m in Spain! Wait! I’m not in Spain!” It was probably a stressful night for them so I’m glad I could bring a few laughs!

Since then, I’ve been fully aware that I’m not in Spain. But, my heart and my thoughts have been there off and on throughout the days since my return home. And, my heart goes out to everyone in Spain who is dealing with the horrible conditions that the weather has brought on. Please join me in praying for them! 

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Note: I am tentatively going to be sharing about my journey on December 1st at my church after the service. Watch for more details!

2 Things I Was Worried About

 2 Things I Was Worried About Before I Left 

1) I really did not want to have to go to the bathroom in the woods! I had my roll of toilet paper and my bags. But, I decided to do everything I could to avoid it. My rule was “if there was an opportunity for a potty break, I was going to take it!” I usually did. And, I am glad I never had to go in the woods! 

2) Now this one is ironic! I was really worried about bedbugs and ticks! I treated my clothes and backpack, along with my sleeping bag liner. So, I was really hoping that would protect me. It did. 

I wrote the basics of this in my head last night. In the middle of the night pain behind my knee woke me up. This morning I discovered a tick was embedded in me from my hike yesterday. So, all my worries about bugs far away and I come home and get my first tick ever. Highly don’t recommend!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

3 Ways I Experienced God

 3 Ways I Experienced God

When I talk to people about walking the Camino and mention that it’s a pilgrimage, they usually want to know about the spiritual aspects of my trip. I feel like people expect big neon signs and lightning bolt experiences with God during my walk. It didn’t really happen that way. In fact, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about exactly what impact this had on my spiritual journey. Today, I went hiking with a friend who walked the Camino with me and we talked about this. I think she helped me realize what I’ve been trying to capture in my mind. But first, I’ll tell you the first two.

1) Finding the one random person I knew was walking sometime in September or October, who I had never met before so didn’t really know what he looked like, and then walking for miles talking and realizing how much we had to talk about. When you think about the fact that over 2000 people were walking that part on that day, it’s pretty amazing!

2) The connections I made, the conversations I had, and the ways we shared within our group were amazing! I truly felt that God had put together the 21 people and I am forever grateful and blessed by this.

3) The other day, I saw a post on a Camino group. Someone found an expensive sports watch and posted it. Shortly, they connected with a friend of the owner and plans were in the works to get the watch to the owner. Would this happen in my town? I’m highly doubtful. But that’s the norm on the Camino. I never felt unsafe, never felt someone would take something from me or take advantage of me. In that time, I only witnessed a harsh word once, and later found out that person was really struggling. I realized today when talking to my friend that my time on the Camino was the closest thing to experiencing what it would be like if people were trying- really trying- to live like Jesus! We put other’s feelings ahead of ourselves while still striving to live our best lives. We helped each other, and felt the love of others supporting us. Loving one another was just a part of life, not something we had to work hard on. We weren’t dealing with the world where hate, intolerance, and greed have taken over. So, while there was no amazing aha moment, I’m realizing that what I’m missing here is experiencing a world where people are living like Jesus showed us, where people naturally followed His greatest commandment, to love one another. So, I need to do what I can to be able to love and show others by example. 

Blessings,

Jennifer 

4 changes I’ve made

 My friend said I couldn’t stop at 5. So, here’s 4! Some of these may start to overlap or duplicate things I’ve already said. But, I guess that just means I’m serious about them. 

4 changes I’ve made

1.  I am prioritizing myself and have started my day with walking my dogs every day since I got home for my physical and mental health.
   
2. I am sitting down to eat at least one meal a day rather than eating every meal on the go.
3. I am coming home at the end of the day and not immediately turning on the tv and instead having conversations or getting things done.
4. I’m researching my next trip and starting to train for it.

5 Places I want to go

 5 Places I Now Want to Go

5- Tennessee hiking adventures with my new friends 

4- Scotland's Highland Hike

3- Portuguese Camino 

2- Fisterra, Spain- I didn’t go on the bus trip this time, which I don’t regret. But, I would like to see it sometime.

1- Grand Canyon Rim to Rim

6 Things

 6 Things I Learned From the Camino 

6- I’m not as young and healthy as I used to be. I hope this experience helps jumpstart me into continuing to improve my health.

5- I need to take more time for myself.

4- I need to spend more time with my family and at home.

3- I need to continue to strive living simply and not acquiring stuff.

2- I need to stay open to new opportunities and experiences.

1- I can do whatever I set my mind to. But, I don’t have to be the best, the fastest. I just have to keep trying. Sometimes I’m my own worst enemy and in reality, I’m just supposed to do the best I can.

7 Things

 7 Things I Can’t Wait to Do When I Get Home 

7- Sleep in my own bed

6- Take a long, hot shower

5- Go for a walk! I haven’t walked for a couple days, especially my travel day. It feels weird not to walk.

4- Unpack… although that also means doing laundry! :(

3- Plan my next trip! They say that’s the best way to deal with the transition back to the “real world”.

2- See and talk to my friends and family- new and old.

1- Talk about the Camino with everyone… so bear with me!

I wrote this on my way home. Fortunately, I’ve been able to do all of these thing! I’m looking forward to continuing to do these things as I haven’t missed a day of walking, am planning to talk at a couple events about my experiences, and have been looking into a trip to hike at the Grand Canyon next spring. While I miss seeing my new friends, we have been trying to keep in touch. I’ve been able to connect with my family and friends and have enjoyed visits from them!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

8 Things That Surprised Me While on the Camino

 8 Things That Surprised Me While On the Camino

8- The struggle was real! The uphill battle on the first day was hard for me. I’m used to being in better shape and losing training time due to my back injury was evident.

7- I didn’t expect to get so close to people in my group. I am so glad I did! It made the journey even more special.

6- I didn’t expect to feel so connected to random people but I loved the way everyone doing the Camino feels a kinship with each other! 

5- I didn’t expect to run into people who live in my state, let alone the one person (friend of a friend) who I had heard was on the Camino in “September or October”. That was crazy!

4- I didn’t expect to forget where I was, what day it was, or where I was going so much!

3- I didn’t expect to have so much rain! I definitely didn’t expect to get used to it and walk through pouring rain and not hate it! 

2- I didn’t expect to walk with people randomly for a bit and then walk with someone different… either from my group or people I met along the way. I had some great conversations with people who I then never saw again. 

1- I didn’t expect to love this experience so much! I can’t wait to do another trip like this!

There are probably more things I could add to this list. Every day was an adventure! I’m so grateful for it!

9 Things

 9 Things I Didn’t Miss While On the Camino

9- Driving. Walking everywhere was nice. I wish I lived in a more accessible walking town, but there are times I can walk instead of driving to get places. I just have to plan it. If not walking, then biking. With winter coming, this might be short-lived until spring.

8- TV. Not once did I think about tv shows or movies I wished I could be watching.

7- Reading. I am constantly reading when I’m home. But, there was so much to do and people around to walk and talk with that I didn’t have time to read and it was ok. I look forward to reading again when I’m home, but I didn’t miss it.

6- Worrying about what I was eating. While there is high fructose corn syrup in Spain, most of the food is fresh and didn’t have the risk of having it in it.

5- Fast Food. I saw a few fast food restaurants in Madrid and a few as we were leaving Santiago. But, I didn’t have any desire to eat fast food because there were so many good options there I wanted to try. Sometimes I get in a habit of eating junk and I know there are better options at home, too.

4- Being connected 24/7. For the first week, I ended up getting a weekly international call plan. But, by week 2, I wasn’t using it and didn’t renew it. I had Wi-Fi so was able to use the internet at certain times when I was at the albergue, but not constantly. That was nice. It’s making me think about how I might want to do things differently once I’m home.

3- Having to choose what to wear every day. I brought minimal clothing since I had to carry everything on my back. So, I knew what I was wearing each day because I usually only had 1 choice. At the most, I had a choice of 2 shirts or shorts or pants.

2- Being busy. While we were always doing things, it was a different kind of day. I had no obligations except to get up, pack up, and walk. It was nice to give my brain a rest. It’s what I needed and craved. I’m ready to go back now. But, I will be mindful to strive for a little less stress on myself.

1- Eating on the run. Spain makes mealtime an experience. I typically eat at least one meal a day in the car.. sometimes two. I want to make at least one meal a day a sit down relaxing time to enjoy food and family or friends. 

Even more than the things I did miss, these things I didn’t miss had me thinking about what things I might want to do differently at home. How can I make changes for the better based on what I learned on the Camino? It’s definitely a work in progress! 

10 Things

 For this week, I’ll be posting a list a day, starting with 10 things today, 9 things tomorrow, etc. 

10 things I missed while on the Camino (besides the obvious ones like family, friends, and dogs)

10- Being able to eat random foods. While the food was AMAZING, sometimes at home I just want something light for dinner like some cheese and crackers or a hard boiled egg and this wasn’t the way food was done. I suppose I could have figured out how to make it happen, but I didn’t.

9- Regular sheets, comforters, and pillows. While we sometimes got one or two of them, I always used my sleeping bag liner to hopefully avoid any creepy crawlers. 

8- Daily downtime. Every moment of the Camino was incredible! From the beautiful views and experiences to the relationships with friends I met. I’m an extroverted introvert and renew my energy from my brainless downtime. I didn’t want to miss anything so I chose not to take daily downtime, but I missed it (just not enough to miss out!)

7- I missed my clients and hanging out with them. Several of them helped me get there by going for walks and things that helped me prepare for the Camino and I wish they could have seen it.

6- Random conversations with people who know me. One day I accidentally pocket dialed my pastor and we had a conversation about things going on. I realized how much I enjoyed having a conversation that was about church stuff and life back home. It helped me a lot when I was stressed about the weather for walking the next day.

5- Being on the same time as everyone else. It was odd being 7 hours ahead of everyone. I am grateful for Marco Polo and what’s app. But, I didn’t like having to check the time before contacting people.

4- Being in the same place for more than a day. Except for the end of the Camino, each day was a new place, a new albergue, and new sleeping arrangements. Packing up everything every morning was challenging at times. It was kind of the point, and I’m grateful for it because it’s part of the experience. But, I did miss being in the same place and it just made me grateful for my home.

3- Knowing the language of the area. While I am glad I did Duolingo daily over the last year, it only got me so far and I wish I could have been more fluent in Spanish so that I could have had real conversations with people rather than one or two word phrases. I hope to keep learning and if I get to go back, hopefully I can be more fluent.

2- Warm towels and a hot tub! Just kidding! I don’t have that when I arrive home from work now. But, every day while walking in the rain, I would tell my friends that warm towels and a hot tub would be waiting for us! What I missed was knowing what to expect when I arrived. 

1- A long running shower! Most of all, I missed a shower that didn’t turn off every 10-20 seconds. I had to push the button or just hold the button to keep the water on. This is a challenge when also trying to get clean! 

While there were things I missed, some of them were things I could have had if I had tried harder or made the choice to do them. Others were part of the experience and while I missed them, I was also grateful for them. And, several were eye opening to the culture and places other than my little world, which was part of my reason for going. Knowing these things, would I go again and miss them again? Absolutely- in a heartbeat! 

Choice

 When thinking about walking yesterday, one of the things that kept going through my mind is the privilege I had to walk. When I first learned about the Camino, it was through reading historical fiction. People escaped occupied France and went to Spain via the Camino Frances. As I was walking, I thought about the people who were persecuted for their religion and left with only the clothes on their backs. I thought about people of all ages, families with young children, and people who left wondering if they would ever see their family again. 

We had some rough days and I wondered if we would walk due to the weather, but never did I have any of the concerns that so many people had while walking through to Spain. After walking it, thinking about how hard it must have been for them is even more clear. 

It also made me think about how lucky I am to not worry about being persecuted for my religion. While there are times someone may say something against my beliefs, I am free to worship who and how I choose. I also make a choice to respect others to worship who and how they choose.

This is not the most expensive way to travel to Spain, but I still feel blessed that I can financially do this. It took some planning and saving, and making choices, but it was doable. And so worth it! It was a beautiful way to see and experience Spain! 

So, again as I continue to process and think about things, the word that comes to mind most often is grateful! 

So, where was God? He continues to bless me in so many ways!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Arrived

 I didn’t write last night for several reasons- mainly because I was exhausted and because I needed to process the day. This morning, I am well rested but still working on processing. But, I’ll throw out some initial thoughts. I think this walk will be giving me gifts and insight for days and weeks to come. 

I didn’t think we’d make it. The storm that hit the day before we were supposed to arrive in Santiago and continue through yesterday was fierce! But, we looked at the radar and decided to set out a little later than usual and stop if we needed to. We walked through puddles past our ankles, took a detour when a road was flooded and blocked by down trees, and walked through so much mud! But, we got to Santiago and the rain stopped! A few showers and cold after we arrived, but all in all, we were so lucky! 

Five of us arrived together. I am grateful for those friendships and sharing that experience with such special people! As we walked the last 10 days, we talked, listened, processed, and laughed. We supported and encouraged each other. 

Living in a collective society for these 2 weeks has shown me the blessings of that life. I had read about it in classes but until I spent the last two weeks living it, I didn’t know what it meant to experience it. Living in a world where everyone helped each other, where things like money for laundry or other things wasn’t something to be split to the last penny, where someone I just met did my laundry, or I did theirs. How do we get there in our real world? I dread going back home to the hate that politics and racism, along with other things, have put into my world. 

The time in Spain is different. They have a siesta in the afternoon and they eat dinner late. I don’t get a siesta, but I usually eat dinner late. Ha! I always thought I was weird but now I know I am just living the Spanish life! The pace here is so much different and it’s a goal of mine. I know I am too busy and I feel like I’m on a treadmill unable to get off. This time has helped me to process this. I don’t have solutions, but I’m working on it. It’s possible and I hope to figure it out eventually. I think it will be trial and error when I get home.

This walk is a pilgrimage, a spiritual journey. So, I’m considering how this has affected me spiritually. I’m still figuring it out. I do know that there were many times when I leaned on God. When things were hard, there were times that I chanted in my head “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13) and that would get me up the hill or through a long stretch of walking. I also felt so amazed by God’s handiwork and when I see it I wonder how people doubt his existence. At times, I thought in amazement that I am walking through places that existed in Bible times. How is this possible?! So cool! The churches we visited were so old and beautiful, the church that someone sang in when we arrived was so inspiring! Today I plan to visit the tomb of St. James and tour the cathedral. I’m looking forward to seeing everything. Overall, spiritually, I guess I would say that this journey has made me so grateful to God for the experience and for the confidence in Him that it has given me.

As I talked about before, this trip began on my dad’s birthday and ends on the anniversary of my mom’s passing. So, thoughts of them were present throughout this trip. Hearing bagpipers made me miss my dad so much! A few times I struggled with grief. Overall, I just wish I could tell them about my adventures! Several others here also have family they are grieving. I think it's a reason many come. I'm glad I have been able to be here in the time leading up to my mom's anniversary of passing. It honestly made it easier. But, I wish I could be with my sister on the day and instead I will be flying home. 

I'm sure I will have more to say, but that is enough for now. 

So, where was God today? He got us here safely.

blessings,

Jennifer

Journey

 The wind is whistling. The rain is pounding against the building. I’m laying here thinking about how much I’ve been looking forward to tomorrow for the past year. Walking into Santiago after days of walking is said to be such an overwhelming experience. I’ve seen pictures of people as they walk in. Most are tearful, a mix of joy and sadness, relief and gratitude. I am wondering what the day will bring.

Today, we walked 13 miles in the rain. It was rough! Tomorrow is looking rougher. 13 miles in harder rain and harder wind. So, it’s very possible that the moment I have been looking forward to will not happen… or at least not in the way I expected. 

So, I have to wonder what God might be teaching me in this. Well, not that He is intentionally making it rain to teach me something. But, what can I learn from this? What can I learn by not achieving my goal? I’m extremely goal oriented and motivated. Maybe too much so?

I have enjoyed every minute of this experience. I’ve enjoyed the journey! On day one, I struggled and it was really hard to get up the hills. While it’s still hard, it is easier than it was. I had to work through some things and deal with the fact that my physical health isn’t what it used to be- but that I am grateful for what I am able to do. I’ve met new people and have made lifelong friends! There is something so special about sharing this experience with people that bonds people like nothing else can. I’ve walked with different people in different times throughout the weeks and I feel like it was always when the other person or I needed to talk or support or encourage each other. I love that I have spent time with different people throughout this. I love the way that people I passed or who passed me would show support. Buen Camino is said as a greeting and response when pilgrims meet. There is so much said in those two words… a message of encouragement, of understanding, and of connection. I’ve seen the beauty of Spain! While the weather wasn’t perfect, I’ve seen so many beautiful places, the historic buildings, and the kindness of the people. 

No matter whether I walk all the way to Santiago or not, it doesn’t lessen the amazing experience! It doesn’t lessen what I’ve learned and realized (which is a blog for another day)! 

I will lean into my word for the year- gratitude. And, while I would be disappointed not to complete the walk in the way I had hoped, I am grateful for the journey.

So, where was God today? He kept me safe and got me to the albergue safely.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Balance

 I’m listening to a symphony of snores right now. I know I should try to be the first one to sleep in order to avoid the symphony, but that doesn’t happen often. 

Today, the weather was beautiful until it wasn’t. The last hour or so it rained. But at this point, we know the routine and just throw on our ponchos and keep walking. Today, I walked with one of my new friends who I spent part of yesterday walking with. We enjoyed walking and talking, stopping for pictures and food, and a few churches along the way. I loved meandering through Spain today! I’ve ended up walking with different people throughout these days, having different conversations that end up being more personal than most conversations with people I’ve recently met. There’s something about walking the Camino with people that opens up for these experiences.

At one church, we walked in and a person was just starting to sing Ave Maria. It was beautiful! Tonight, she walked into the main area of our hostel. She’s staying here, too. I love meeting new people from all over the world and seeing them off and on throughout this journey. 

A friend asked what this Camino has done for me- or something like that. I’m not sure yet. I’ve got a few days to go. There are some things floating around in my head but I’m not sure how to articulate them yet. I do know this experience is amazing and I have not regretted a second of it! I am wondering how to bring this experience home with me and use what I’m learning from it. I’m still working on it. 

I haven’t had a chance to read, watch tv, or read anything political and I can’t say I’m missing it! Getting a break to quiet my mind has been wonderful! Working as much as I do, I’m taking this time away to focus on myself and my family rather than work. That, too, has been a blessing, although I miss my clients! I think if anything at this point can be articulated, it’s that I need to find a better balance between all of the things I love. I’m not sure how to do that or what it looks like, but I think it’s one of my goals. I’ve got time to figure it out. 

Also, I’ve had some conversations about some pretty tough things I’ve been through. They didn’t affect me in a bad way, which makes me realize that I’ve already let them go. I’m working on processing some things and I’m sure I’ll get to them soon. But, for now I’m just grateful that I’ve let go of what I have.

It’s time for me to join the symphony of snores.

So, where was God today? He was in the conversation I had as I walked 9 miles with my friend.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Provided

 I’m sitting downstairs in my albergue for the night. Most of my group is sleeping. Lights went out at 9:30. It’s been progressively earlier each night. This is one of the few albergues that has people other than our group. The main room is filled with laughter, talking, food, and fun. I just turned to look and they are sitting in a row doing a train of shoulder rubs. It’s fun to see how much fun they are having. I’m pretty sure they all started this adventure as strangers. It’s amazing how this shared experience has connected them. 

Today it rained-poured most of the time- and once in awhile the wind picked up. It was also our longest walk at about 16 miles. It could have been a miserable day. But, I honestly had such a great time talking to people and hearing their stories that it was an enjoyable day! 

We stopped for lunch at some point and getting a reprieve from the rain was good. Before I left, I told people I was going to meander through Spain. It has depended on the day whether I’ve made many stops. Some of our walks haven’t had many stops. Others have had fun places to experience. 

Some have not been able to walk one day for one reason or another. Others have walked fast or slow. Sometimes there are 2 ways to go- one easier than the other. One of the great things about the Camino is everyone can do their own thing. The Camino is different things for different people. I’ve also found it’s very different for me from day to day. While some days I feel time alone is better, other times I need to walk with friends, and still other times I enjoy walking with strangers along the way.

I had no idea what to expect before I started. I don’t know if I can tell someone else what to expect because I think it’s different for everyone. There is a saying that the Camino gives you what you need. I didn’t understand that before I started, but I think I’m starting to.

So, where was God today? He was watering his gardens, for sure!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Godcidence

 As the symphony of snores plays, I’m laying here thinking about what an amazing experience this is! I spent the first days in quiet reflection at times while listening and sharing with new friends at other times. The Camino has changed as of today as so many more are now on their journey. Hundreds of people are within sight throughout the day. This last leg of the journey is what people need to walk in order to get their certificate. So, many start here.

While walking today, I said “burn Camino” a million times, as I was often passed or passing people. At several points, I walked and talked with people from all over the world. It was so fun to hear about them and what brought them to the Camino. If I was home a few months ago, there would be a lot of prep before a 13 mile hike. Today, we just went and did a, getting done in Enid- afternoon. Those that are able to walk are surely finding the days easier than the first day, at least I know I am!

One of the most amazing things is that I knew a friend of a friend was walking the Camino sometime in September or October. Today, I ran into him, having never seen it met him before. We walked together for a few miles, not sure how many because the time just flew by! The grant he got is similar to what my pastor just got. His focus was storytelling, just like ours. Hopefully he and my pastor can meet and we can meet up after he’s back to chat about some of the things they are doing and some things we want to do. Hopefully, our paths will cross again. 

It’s cool to talk with people from all over the world! I’m learning so much and I’m feeling so blessed to be doing this!

So where was God today? He was helping me find the friend of a friend.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Buen Camino

 Today we walked to Sarria, between 9 and 10 miles. If I walked 9 miles a few months ago, I would have had to prepare and plan for it. It would have been a lot. But this morning, I was excited for our shorter day after the last couple of days of walking in the rain. 

It’s amazing how much our perspectives can change! Tomorrow is a 13 mile day. While it sounds like a lot, my first thought was “that’s only a few more than today so that’s good!” 

Walking today flew by! I walked and talked with friends. At one point, a fence was filled with crosses made out of sticks that people had stuck in there. My friend and I added a cross to it. At another spot, a table was set up by a church. There was coffee, fruit, and a few other snacks for everyone to enjoy. Another place had a message of encouragement for pilgrims as they walked by. And, towards the end of our journey, a table with 2 women had drinks and cookies for anyone who wanted something. I love all of the support and encouragement throughout the walk! Buen Camino is the typical greeting as pilgrims meet each other. I can count on one hand today the number of pilgrims who didn’t greet us when we saw each other. There’s a feeling of connection, of a shared experience and goal, even if we only meet for a minute. 

Stories are shared between pilgrims, hearing where they are from and why they are here, stories of hope and forgiveness, experiences and changes that need to be made. Words don’t do it justice. 

So where was God today? He was in the conversations I had and in the people who gave us food and drinks along the way.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Rain

 Today we had even more rain than yesterday! There were some high winds and at one point I’m pretty sure it was sleeting! But, I still walked about 12 miles with some really great people! 

Luckily, there wasn’t as much climbing today, but there was some. I’m not a fan of that! But, I do feel like even in this few days, it’s all getting easier physically. Tomorrow is about 9 1/2 miles. Before, I would have thought that a long distance. Tonight, I was thinking we only have 9 miles tomorrow- that’s an easy day! 

The walk was filled with laughter, talking, a few pauses for photo ops, and greetings of buen Camino to everyone we saw! While the goal is not a race, today the weather made us more focused on walking and we didn’t stop much. Today’s walk didn’t have as many opportunities to stop anyway so it worked out.

Towards the end of today’s walk, with about 3 miles to go, someone suggested singing. So we took turns choosing and leading a song. We sang hymns such as Amazing Grace and It is Well and other favorites such as Jesus Loves Me and If You’re Happy and You Know It! It helped us pass the time, find joy in the moment, and kept our spirits up! 

This evening, while looking for a place to eat, we ran into a couple that we have seen several times in several towns. They are from areas near us. It’s a small world! When in a restaurant, we struck up a conversation with some people from Italy. We ended up having dinner together and enjoying learning about each other’s cultures and lives. The Camino isn’t about Spain even though it’s a journey through Spain. It’s about learning about cultures, meeting new people and connecting with them. At the same time, the Camino is about learning who we are and connecting with ourselves, finding out who we want to be and figuring out how to make it happen. 

I am so grateful and blessed to be here. As I type this, the bells of the monastery are ringing. There is so much beauty- sights, sounds, tastes surrounding me throughout the day that I am overwhelmed by God’s beautiful masterpiece that we get to witness! 

I’m also grateful for the people God is putting in my path throughout this journey! The people in the group are amazing and I am loving meeting new people!

So where was God today? He was with us keeping us safe with all the weather! 

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Relentless

 Today was wet! The rain was nonstop! The hike started out uphill and I felt better than yesterday morning walking uphill. But then the rain kept coming. At first it was just a drizzle but even a drizzle when nonstop gets to be hard. Luckily, I had good company and good conversation. 

When we got almost to the top, there was a bagpiper! The town has a Celtic vibe. I recorded it for awhile and stayed and listened to him. It reminded me of my dad because I remember him being emotional when the bagpipes played at my wedding. He would have loved hearing me talk about this moment and showing him the video. 

Of course, my parents have been on my mind a lot lately. So, I got a little emotional during this time. One of my new friends from the group was there and she was so sweet about it. 

Then we spent some time in the town. The church is special because the priest who really brought life back into the Camino was buried there. 

Leaving the town, I was relieved to know that I would spend time walking on flat or downhill paths. But I was wet and cold. So I just started walking and got into a zone. Before I knew it, I was ahead and alone. I think I needed that time. I had a lot on my mind and just needed some time to process it. I didn’t solve anything… I didn’t get answers… but I guess I got peace. And, it felt good just to walk. Taking this time for myself, I realize how much I needed it. While it’s true that I work a lot, I still have time to do things differently in other times. My priorities have to align with how I spend my time. I’m not sure what that means, but it’s what I thought about for a long time today. 

I thought about how sometimes the days just keep coming, relentless (like the rain today), and we get into a grind. But later, I thought about how God is relentless and keeps pursuing us. I don’t have to do anything but trust in him. He doesn’t give up on me! So, God and I talked for awhile.

Miles later, I met up with some friends and we walked together again. 

The last few miles, my shoes were sloshy, I was soaked, and I just couldn’t wait to get to the destination. But, it was an adventure I’m grateful for! 

So where was God today? Relentlessly pursuing me!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Last

 I climbed a mountain today! 15.4 miles up and down and to the town we’re staying in! A group of 4 of us left at 7 this morning… in the dark… to begin the journey. I immediately lagged behind. I used to be the one in front but now I’m definitely not! Our group actually arrived last. It wasn’t just me… we stopped and enjoyed the experience and ate several times along the way. We went in several churches and cemeteries, stopped by a stream, and took lots of pictures. 

Yesterday, the leader said the people that don’t enjoy the experience on the Camino are usually runners. They calculate their distance in their head- if I was running 10 miles instead of walking, I’d get there this much faster. That used to be me. Whenever I walked, or was deciding when to walk or run for a workout, that’s exactly what I did!

7 months ago, everything changed when I broke my back! Running stopped and I was grateful to be walking. But I couldn’t walk far or fast and while I can walk distances now, I’m not fast. It’s humbling to be last. But I have to be grateful! If I was still in the same place I was before I fell, would I be enjoying the moment.. taking advantage of stopping to have these amazing experiences? I don’t know! 

But I do know that God is trying to teach me to be humble and grateful! Tomorrow I will probably be at the back of the pack again. But, I will be enjoying the journey and being grateful for all of it!

So where was God today? He kept me safe and I was reminded that He is with me and I can do all things through Him.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Worship

 Today was a beautiful day! I got to experience worship in 3 completely different ways and they were all so beautiful and spiritual! It reminds me that there are so many ways to worship and one is no better than another! If God is in it and we feel the spirit moving, all is good! 

Started with mass in Spanish and I understood words here and there, but the music and what I did understand, and the Beauty of the iglesia gave me a sense of awe. Another cool thing was that I kept hearing my son’s name during part of the service. From what I could pick up, the priest was talking about angels Rafael, Gabriel, and Miguel and how they were the eyes and hands of God. I found out afterwards that today was a special day- feast of the archangels! 

This evening, I watched my service on YouTube live sitting by a stream in the beautiful scenery of villafranca Spain and got to see one of the youth baptized! The service mentioned the walk to Emmaus and being silent, among other things, and I felt those were some things I needed to hear!

Then, I went inside and met with the group I’m here with and we had a time of music and prayer. I love the connection we have and I felt a sense of peace, especially when we prayed and I heard the translation of the blessing of the pilgrims from this morning. 

I am grateful!

At the alburgue in villafranca, the woman who runs it was talking to my friend when I came down. I picked up from their conversation that she can get a sense of things about people from being in their presence. When they were done talking, she looked at me and said “You work too much! You need to stop working so much!” She’s not wrong! I love everything I do. But, one of the reasons I was looking forward to this trip was that it would be a time to just stop. I get to quiet my brain and just walk. I’m looking forward to the days ahead when I can do this. Of course, I’m sure I will end up thinking about random things while walking. But it won’t be thinking about all of the things I need to do. 

A meal here seems to take several hours at the restaurants. The server doesn’t rush and we have to practically beg for our checks. We have a hard time with this because we are so used to rushing. But, I’m finding a peace in this. I have nowhere to be at a certain time and I can enjoy the moment. 

I need to remember these things when I go home. How can I include what I’m experiencing here in my life? I’m not sure.. but I have days of walking to think about it!

So where was God today? He was in the worship that I experienced and in the moments of peace and beauty I had.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Connect

 Today we all finally met! After chatting with some and seeing some on zoom, it was great to start putting names and faces together! I’m discovering some of the blessings of the Camino are the connections that happen and the openness for opportunities to connect. 

In just this first day, or second for some, of meeting, we have shared together. Tapas seems to be the popular dinner fare. People are happy to order food to share with one or a whole group. Sitting around the table sharing food, conversation, and laughter is always a great way to connect! The food here is amazing! 

Both hostels so far have had rooms for 6. Last night I only knew one person and tonight they are all from our group. Sleeping in the same place, there becomes a dense of understanding people… who’s a light sleeper, who gets up at night, who gets up early, etc. I discovered one of our group is always hot and also doesn’t like top bunk. I am always cold and don’t mind climbing up to the top bunk. So, I get too bunk and an extra blanket! It’s perfect!

We did laundry tonight. Everyone in our room threw their clothes in. It just makes sense to do as much as possible when we have to pay and don’t have lots of time.

 I just love how it was so easy for a group who were strangers yesterday to do things that if not on the Camino might seem odd. I wouldn’t go on vacation and stay in a hotel and connect in these ways. I’m learning this is one of the blessings of the Camino- part of the beauty of it. 

So, where was God today? He was enjoying seeing this group meet and connect!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Aqui

 I made it! I haven’t slept much and I’m just starting to feel it. It’s 7pm here, noon where I am from. So it’s definitely an adjustment and my hopes for sleeping on the plane didn’t really materialize. Snippets of sleep here and there. But, I found myself captivated by the sky as we flew in the dark and I looked out and saw the stars so close, well they seemed close. At one point, the sliver of moon was an amazing color of orange and looked so close! It was so beautiful that I couldn’t stop staring at it! Later, it looked totally different and farther away.

God’s creation is just so awesome! 

When we got to Madrid and rode a taxi to the hostel, I was again amazed by beauty- the beauty of the buildings, the streets, the atmosphere! Walking through the streets of Spain was so much fun! We saw a few of the most popular places, but hopefully tomorrow we’ll see more things, like the cathedral and the palace. 

Right now I am sitting in a gathering space at my hostel. Music is quietly playing in the background, someone is playing pool, some are napping, others are on computers or phones. It’s such a relaxing environment that is so contrasting to the hustle and bustle just outside the doors. I love them both! My room is cute and clean. I plan to sleep well tonight. 

I’m feeling blessed to be here and am trying to soak up the culture and atmosphere here. I’ve struggled with a few conversations in Spanish, but hopefully I’ll get more comfortable before I leave. 

So where was God today? He kept me safe while traveling.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Adios

 One more sleep! I can’t believe it’s almost here! All of the planning and anticipation… and a little bit of anxiety… will all come to fruition tomorrow! But as I’ve said before, the Camino starts the day someone decides to go. And so in typical Camino fashion, I’ve had so many realizations and learning experiences lately.

As I am preparing to leave for several weeks, I have spent time this week making sure things at home are ready. One of the realizations I’ve had is just how blessed my life is. There would have been a great many years when I would not have been able to do this financially. And while I’ve had to put in a lot of hours at my side jobs, I am so blessed that I have jobs that I love that will support me doing things like this. Speaking of work, this week has been bittersweet as I’ve been working with my clients.  I’m excited about having time off, but I will miss my clients greatly. They are such a big part of my life and my time with them enriches my life so much that I felt a sense of sadness at not seeing them for the next two weeks. While I shouldn’t be surprised by this, the realization did surprise me a bit. I’ve tried to include them in my adventure by walking with my backpack, telling them about the Camino, and telling them that I will take lots of pictures! 

Another blessing is the conversations and time I’ve spent with family and friends before my trip. Phone calls and visits… today I had lunch with family. All of these treasured moments leading up to my trip are making me realize even more how much I have to be grateful for. 

My church family has sent me with well wishes and blessings! I have a backpack tag from the blessing of the backpacks earlier this month. So, I have a constant reminder of the people cheering me on at home. My friends from my former church have also been cheering me on and have sent me well wishes and prayers. It is so comforting to know that I’m surrounded by people who love and pray for me! What a blessing!

I could go on and on about the blessings surrounding me, but I have to get a good nights sleep! So I will close with asking for prayers for my new friends joining me on this adventure. Several of them are going through hurricane areas and travel may be delayed. Prayers for safety and on-time travel for all would be much appreciated!

So where was God today? He’s been surrounding me with blessings!

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Pain

I’m sharing this because I think it’s part of the journey. I’ve heard your Camino starts when you make the decision to go. I feel that. I’ve learned so much since I made the decision to go! In my free time, I’ve researched hiking supplies, packed and repacked my backpack, and my Facebook feed is filled with Camino pages, not to mention walking and walking. I’m so excited it’s getting close! But, what I’m more hesitant to talk about is that I’m a bit nervous and scared of how I will do walking day after day.

I have packed and repacked my bag. I’ve weighed it, weighed random items as I decided whether the weight was worth it or not, and thought about what I would definitely need or possibly could buy while walking if I decide I need it. Today, my friend and I met and went through our backpacks, making sure we have everything and seeing what we can take one of instead of both of us carrying one. I went from 19 lbs to about 16 lbs. It will lessen as I go since I will be using some things along the way. My goal was 13, but 16 will have to do.

Why will a few pounds matter? Well, I hope it won’t. But, the fact is that my back still bothers me. I was not feeling it much and then suddenly it’s been bothering me daily. I end up having to wear my brace, which I especially hate in hot weather! After a bit with my brace on, I feel better. Hopefully it just gets better. Either way, I’m trying to give myself the best chance possible for success. So, the lighter pack, the better. 

My friend and I went for a long, hot hike through the dunes last week. During the hike my hands swelled. Afterwards, I got really exhausted and got a headache. I think it was a dehydration issue. I drank water, but maybe not enough. My first thought was what if I spend my time in Spain fighting migraines! That would be miserable! 

I’m ridiculously excited about my upcoming adventure! I’m counting down the days! But, I’m also scared! I don’t know what to expect, all the research in the world (which I’ve studied most of it lol) can’t predict what will happen. Sometimes I think I should have waited a year when I broke my back. Like, what was I thinking?! But I’m stubborn and once I decided to go, I wasn’t backing down. But now, I’d be lying to say I don’t have any concerns. My back and my headaches play a role in how my days go. So, I’m about to push myself and hope my body cooperates.

So, I guess this is where faith comes in. I’ve done all I could to prepare myself the best I could. Now, I have to rely on God to help me. He has cleared my path, given me signs along the way to let me know that I should go, and now I have to trust in that. It’s not always easy because I can get in my own head. But, when it comes down to it, God can give me the strength I need. And, I feel he has put people in my path when I’ve needed them and he will do the same along the Camino.

So, where was God today? He is supporting me along my journey with signs and people along my path.

Blessings,

Jennifer 

Grief

 

At first, the trip was going to be in the summer. But then the dates changed to the fall. It happens to be a very significant time for me.

I arrive in Spain on my dad’s birthday. It will be his 5th birthday without him. I’ve been thinking about him a lot lately and missing him a lot. The other day, I was trying to figure something out and my first thought was that I should call him! It’s been over 5 years and I still pick up the phone wanting to talk! I think I’m missing him even more right now because it’s almost his birthday. But, also, I’m missing him because I wish I could share this excitement with him… tell him about my adventure… talk about how I’m getting ready! I miss our times together. 

It seems the time leading up to anniversaries is sometimes harder than the actual day for me. My mom passed almost a year ago. The anniversary of her passing is the day I arrive home. I miss my mom and going through her things in the last few years has made me see how much of my faith has come from her. I wish I could have had a chance to talk to her about some of the things I found- devotions she wrote, Bible studies she did, lesson plans for Sunday school. I expect this month to be filled with thoughts and memories of my mom as I continue to grieve for her. Taking this walk and focusing on my spiritual journey, I wish I could talk about it with my mom. 

I hope this walk will help me on my journey of grieving my parents and I find it amazing that it begins and ends with these significant dates in my life. It helps me to feel them supporting me along the way. 

So where was God?

He was in the planning and in my journey of grief, giving me hope and comfort.

Blessings,

Jennifer