changes

1 1/2 years ago, I started a new path on my jour4.  I became the Teen center coordinator in town.  I made a lot of sacrifices to do this, including time and money. 2 days ago, I found out that position was about to change very quickly.  My summer hours were cut to less than 1/3 of what they have been-starting today.  I am sad that the center is not getting the support it needs. After the time I have spent there, I am more reassured than ever that it is desperately needed.   My hope is that when school resumes, the center will go back to the hours we had.
In the meantime, I have had 2 days to figure out what I am supposed to do next.  After about 30 minutes of shock, anger, and most of all fear of not being able to support my family, I realized something. My entire life, God has taken care of me. Even when I didn't make the greatest choices, God still showed His love for me. So, why would that change now? I was immediately calmed. Am I sad for my teens who I fear won't get what they need? Yes, I admit that concerns me. But, am I worried about what is coming next for me? No! I am actually excited! I have talked to a few people about a few possibilities. I have figured out our finances.  And, right now, I am enjoying the thought of taking a little more time to spend with the people I love. It's not as if I don't have a job-I still work full time.
So, now, I am looking forward to seeing what happens next. I am usually trusting in God but anxious to know His plan. But, for some reason, I am not anxious,  only enjoying the journey and making the most of life while I wait to see what's next. I love this feeling!
So, where was God today?  He was in the time I had to accomplish things, to walk the puppies,  to relax and enjoy.
Blessings,
Jennifer