Plans

I woke up this morning with my head pounding!  I knew pretty quickly that nothing but a trip to the ER would help me.  Luckily, there was nobody in there so I got right in.  I came home and tried to get some sleep, but I wasn't able to do much more than close my eyes and try to relax.  The meds didn't last long enough and the headache came back, although a dull pain. 
Early afternoon, I still hadn't gotten the phone call I expected yesterday.  You see, yesterday, I got a call from the place we're supposed to do a mission for.  They asked me about getting another female adult.  I had talked to them a couple weeks ago and made it clear who was coming so they knew that wasn't going to happen.  We had made arrangements accordingly and they sent me my final bill according to the list I had sent them.  That told me we were good to go- until my phone call yesterday.  She said she was about to go into a meeting with the executive director to see if they could approve us going.  So, as of this afternoon I had heard nothing, which made me think things were ok.  But, I thought I better call and check anyway.  That's when I found out that it wasn't approved and we were not going to be able to stay there and work- 3 days before we're supposed to load the van up for our trip!
Luckily, my faith was working overtime and I kept playing over and over in my head that God must have somewhere else He wants us to go.  I called the pastor and he started checking things out.  (When I have a migraine, I'm not comfortable talking to people- especially people I don't know well- because I have trouble communicating and being heard sometimes) 
In the meantime, I found out that I had no choice but to go to work at the Teen Center because there was nobody to replace me.  I wasn't looking forward to getting out of bed for anything, let alone going somewhere!  But, when I got there my boss had set everything up for me and teens were already playing with the new basketball hoops.  Seeing them so happy was a great boost.  And, when they found out I wasn't feeling good, they were so sweet!  Love those guys!
While I was there, I decided to call the church we were planning on staying at on our way there and home.  Already we were planning to stay an extra day and do some projects for them.  I talked to the pastor who was more than willing to have us stay all week, assuming we were still planning on doing service projects.  She had some ideas of places for me to look into and was very helpful.
When I got home from work, I went online to check out the places she recommended.  A few looked like very likely possibilities.  So, I called and left messages.  I went to another website that listed volunteer opportunities throughout New Orleans.  I found one for a thrift store that is soon opening.  The proceeds from it will benefit battered women, which is an area that is close to my heart.  I also talked to the person in charge of youth ministries for my area.  She knows the person in charge of missions who happens to originally be from New Orleans.
I could see that God was opening up doors for us to spend a week in New Orleans, which would give my youth a chance to really get to know people there rather than working 100 miles away in a "warehouse" type setting putting together health kits- which was a likely possibility with our original trip plan. 
It was late for phone calls- almost 9pm.  I was on the phone with one of the chaperones giving him the update when another call came in.  It was a New Orleans area code so I quickly answered it. 
I am happy to announce we will be helping at the thrift store for the Metropolitan Center for Women and Children!  He is so excited we are coming to help!  It sounded as though as much as they are an answer to my prayers, we are an answer to his.  And, that's how it should be!  So, we'll be spending a week in New Orleans making a difference and sharing God's message of love to those who need it.  I can't be happier about God's plan.
We'll be staying at the church, which is probably cheaper, although we'll now be providing our own meals.  And, we'll be seeing more of New Orleans and riding a ferry to our job site every day!  And, traveling 2 fewer hours there and back.
God is Good!  Love His plan!
“My deliverance and glory depend on God. God is my strong rock. My refuge is in God.” Psalm 62:7
Blessings,
Jennifer

Encouragement

Very rarely do I have "one of those days".  You know the kind- lots of little things pile up and make it seem like they are big things and your mood just goes downhill.  With so many things happening- hearing of several tragic deaths within a short period of time, getting ready for a trip and finding out things I thought were taken care of aren't, just random things- I was just not in the right frame of mind this morning. 
As I went through the day, I tried to put each thing in perspective and just focus on what I needed to get done- although I felt like I was walking on a treadmill and getting nowhere. 
Luckily, God sensed what I was feeling.  He knew that today I needed some encouragement.  So, today, several people spoke encouraging words to me, reminding me God would take care of things, several people commented on things I'd written, reminding me that what I write matters, my teen center kids lit up when they saw pizza and the new basketball game I acquired for them, reminding me why I do what I do, and someone even asked me to lead a workshop, trying to convince me I know enough about the subject to discuss it for an hour, and ending the day talking to my mom and making plans for a visit from them very soon to hear what my youth share during their Youth Sunday. 
So, where was God today?  He was in a lot of you reading this right now.  Whether it was today or another day, me or someone else, giving words of love and encouragement to others is a blessing and a gift from God.  So, I thank you for helping me get through today and every day.
So that we who first hoped in Christ [who first put our confidence in Him have been destined and appointed to] live for the praise of His glory! Ephesians 1: 12
Blessings,
Jennifer

Black Dot

With prep for the mission trip and other things going on, tonight was my first chance to go in depth with a discussion I've been wanting to share.  I mentioned it a few weeks ago, but didn't get a chance to do more than just that.
So, tonight my plan was to put a dot on the white board.  Then, ask the youth what it was.  A good friend of mine used this example and I loved it.  It always happens that they mention the small dot rather than the huge white space.  That compares to us and mistakes or sin.  We see the negative so much more than the positive- both in others and ourselves.  I shared that tonight and then asked how that related to lent and Easter.  Without much prompting at all, they talked about God seeing the white and when I brought out the eraser they immediately knew that was God erasing the dot.  I love when they get it!
Here is what was really amazing.  I should have done this at the beginning of lent.  But, it didn't happen.  And, honestly tonight I wasn't sure I was going to do it.
You see, last night, a girl from the middle school committed suicide.  It has been said that she was a perfectionist and grading just ended and may have contributed in some way.  Others say she was severely bullied.  I went to the church knowing I needed to address this but not knowing how.  So, I googled.  Nothing came up that I could use.  So, I shut down the computer and prayed that God would give me the words.
15 minutes later as kids started coming in, I started.  About 17 teens in a room usually means lots of side chatter, giggles, and pure squirreliness- no matter what.  But, as I started I asked them to refrain tonight from that behavior even moreso than they usually "try".  I should have recorded what I said because it worked!
As I started, I opened my mouth and the words just started coming out.  We did talk about lent and the black dot of sins or mistakes.  Then, at the end of that discussion I told them that a girl from their school couldn't see any of the white board anymore- to her it was all black dots and hopelessness.  And, then I told them what several of them already knew.  What followed was a time of sharing, questioning, and even some anger.  It was about the girl, about friends they knew, about themselves, and random things they just needed to get out.
It wasn't me talking.  I knew that.  It was God talking and listening through me.  And, for that I am grateful because I had no clue what to say!
Blessings,
Jennifer

Training

I spent today learning how to lead a mission trip.  A week from now, I'll be leading my 3rd trip.  The first 2 have both been amazing experiences in very different ways- both great and exactly what our group needed.  This year is my biggest group and the farthest away.  So, even though the first 2 went really well, I went looking forward to any advice or ideas I could take away to use next week. 
It turned out to be a great day!  Although some things I already knew, the new ideas I got will definitely benefit our group this year.  One thing was the follow through when we get back home.  I knew I always came back home and had a really hard time adjusting.  It turns out I'm not alone and they have descriptions of the different common issues people face when they get back.  This could be a great thing to share with the parents so they know and understand when their teens get back.
There were ideas on spiritual discussions, questions during the day, and other ideas that will be helpful for me as I lead my group.  There was also someone there who had created a journal for everyone on her trip- pages they could write in, scriptures and positive messages, and names and contact info for everyone on the trip. 
I guess I have some homework this week!  It's a good thing all of my other details are lined up pretty well now.  It will help pass the time as I anxiously go through the next week anticipating my next adventure!
Where was God today?  He must have had this all planned out.  This was the first mission leadership training I had heard about and it just so happened to be right before my trip.
As I look at this scripture, I'm thinking "I could have skipped this training thinking that I was fine the last 2 trips so it's useless.  But I would have missed so much that I know will be useful on this next one."
So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.
1 Corinthians 15:58 NLT
Blessings,
Jennifer

Talent Show

Tonight I went to the high school variety show.  It's always fun to see so many talented high schoolers performing together.  This year, there was a different feel to some of the performances.  Of course there were the typical singers and dancers.  But, the recent death of one of the show choir guys has impacted the students deeply.  Rather than being angry or sad (which I am sure they are), they are working to change the future for themselves and students to come.  Unfortunately, the student had died of a heroin overdose.  But, the students are now working to rid their school and the city of drugs and trouble.  They are speaking out and letting people know they won't stand for it anymore.  So, the show choir is now selling t-shirts and bracelets that say "Be the Change".  And I believe they will be. 
They sang and dedicated it to their former show choir student while a powerpoint of his photos played on the screen.  It was sad to see someone so young with so much potential now gone.
A teacher sang and played his guitar to a song I'd never heard before.  It was obvious he's one of the student's favorites.  And, when he sang, I realized why.  Before he sang, he told the audience he hoped they all felt he protected them from being made fun of or from being bullied and that this song had really impacted him when he heard it.  When he sang it, it really impacted me, too. 
So, where was God tonight?  He was in the teens trying to Be the Change and share it with others.  And, He was in the teacher who has obviously been a positive force for a lot of teens for over 40 years.  When he sang those words, I felt they were words many need to hear.
So, I'd like to share them with you.
Don't Laugh At Me (Seskin, Steve / Shamblin, Allen)

I'm a little boy with glasses
The one they call a geek
A little girl who never smiles
'Cause I have braces on my teeth

And I know how it feels to cry myself to sleep
I'm that kid on every playground
Who's always chosen last
A single teenage mother

Tryin' to overcome my past
You don't have to be my friend
But is it too much to ask

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm the beggar on the corner
You've passed me on the street
And I wouldn't be out here beggin'
If I had enough to eat
And don't think I don't notice
That our eyes never meet
I'm fat, I'm thin, I'm short, I'm tall
I'm deaf, I'm blind, hey, aren't we all

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me                          
Blessings,
Jennifer                                                                                                                

Neighbor

I got home from work tonight and started for the door.  I heard someone behind me and turned around.  It was my neighbor.  He doesn't actually live next door.  He lived there with his mom and she moved away.  Shortly after, he moved somewhere else but he still checks on the house.  Lately, he's been around a lot.  He's a nice guy, although we have rarely talked beyond saying hi.  At first glance, one may not think so- he looks kinda rough and hangs out with a rough looking crowd.  And, when he's at the house he's usually drinking with his friends- partying pretty heavily.  But, he's always been polite, respectful, and really nice.
All that being said, I wasn't surprised when he came up behind me tonight to talk to me even though he talks much more to my husband than me.  But, I was surprised at his question.  He asked me about my church.  He told me he has a friend who is concerned for a girl who is having a rough time.  He wanted information about my youth group.  The girl was too young for youth group but I told him about the other programs there.  He thanked me and said he'd let his friend know.
So, where was God today?  He gave my neighbor the courage to talk to me.  He gave my neighbor's friend an open heart and open mind to look to God for help for this girl.  And, I am thankful to be a part of that.  Now, it's time to pray for the next step.  I hope to see them at church soon.
Luke 10:27
He responded, “You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your being, with all your strength, and with all your mind, and love your neighbor as yourself.”
Blessings,
Jennifer

Parenting

I realize I have been slacking in the writing department.  It has nothing to do with not seeing God daily.  I'm sure I have.  It isn't as if I don't have time.  My  schedule is more free now than it used to be.  I think it has to do with my preoccupation with other things in the late evening when I normally write.  Being the parent of a teenager is sometimes a very trying role in life- especially when that magic number 18 becomes the age o the teenager! 
I enjoy teens.  I love spending time with them and amazingly, they seek my guidance and company.  Ironically, my own teen is the one I seem to not have the same effect on.  I know this is true with most, but I'm usually on the other side trying to play the role of bridge between teen and parent. 
So, tonight, in honor of this "season of my life", I'd like to share this.
A few years ago, I wrote a poem called "Now That I'm a Parent".  In it, I shared how much I now understand and how much I regret from my teen years in relation to my parents.  Tonight, I want to share how blessed I have been to have the parents God gave me.  Somehow, in my troubling teen years, my parents were able to continue show me they loved me, show me that even though they didn't approve of my behavior they loved me unconditionally.  And, just as importantly, when times were tough, they looked to God for guidance and comfort.  At the time, I may not have seemed to notice, but I did.  The example my parents have always set is something I have strived for daily. 
So, where have I seen God?  I have seen Him in my parents- in the way they raised me and I cling to that as I attempt to raise a son in the same manner- loving him unconditionally and looking to God as my guide.
Thanks mom and dad for every moment you have blessed me with.  I'm sorry for the moments that were hard but I treasure that they made me who I am today because of how you handled them.  I am praying I can follow your example.
Ephesians 6:2-3

Common English Bible (CEB)

² The commandment Honor your father and mother is the first one with a promise attached: ³ so that things will go well for you, and you will live for a long time in the land.

Blessings,

Jennifer

Inspiration

I am currently having on online discussion on facebook.  One of my youth started a facebook page for teens to discuss the drug problem in LaPorte- both talking about the problems and looking for solutions.  So far 44 people are discussing what they can do to help the problems here.  And, word is spreading!  Youth are taking something terrible- a teen dying from a heroin overdose- and taking action.  They could sit around and blame others.  But, instead they are looking at what they can do to change it so nobody else has to die. 
I am so proud to see that one of my youth is the one who started this page.  I can't take credit for her passion and dedication to changing the world.  But, I hope I had a part in encouraging her in some way.  And, I truly see God's hand at work in her as she continues to grow and share her commitment to helping others.  She has committed to posting once a day about some way we can all help change the world- whether it be environmental, emotional, or helping people in need.  I try to post a blog every day, but that doesn't always happen.  So, to see a high school senior who has posted every day since January 1st is remarkable to me.  And by looking at her page, it's obvious others are paying attention and being influenced by her.  Maybe we can't save everyone.  And, maybe the world will never be perfect.  But, with people like her in the world, I know it will continue to become a better place.
Blessings,
Jennifer

Cookout

I think this warm weather has made me unusually tired.  I fell asleep before writing last night.  So, here is Sunday's contribution.
Shortly after church yesterday, I got a phone call from one of my volunteers.  He bought a house in the country recently and asked if we could have a cookout for youth group.  I don't typically do last minute things for youth group.  But, it was such a beautiful day and I knew the youth were ready for an evening of fun.  I've been pushing pretty hard with the famine and mission trip consecutively.  So, I agreed that if we could get ahold of them we could do it.  I got on the phone and texted and got home and posted on facebook.  With the wonderful world of technology, it's not hard to contact everyone in a short amount of time.
So, it was a go!  And, at 4:30 several adults met at the church to give some rides while others went straight to his house.  I grabbed a few outdoor things- balls, bats, Frisbees, etc.  And, soon we were off!  By the time the group from the church got there, others were running around enjoying the day and the volunteer was heating up the charcoal for hotdogs and hamburgers.  People had brought things to go with the main dish and we had plenty of food.
Throughout the evening, there was a group game of kickball- which I played and actually got to 3rd base before getting out!- a walk around the property, girls doing cartwheels and flips, and a group sitting around playing guitars while others listened.  Some sat and chatted while others ran around.  It was relaxed and fun for everyone.  It was a perfect evening- a gift from God!
I typically don't do last minute things for youth group.  But, something told me this was what needed to happen Sunday.  And, I'm pretty sure I was right.  It was time for some fun and relationship building.  It was time to enjoy a beautiful day and take advantage of the gift we'd been given this weekend.
So, where was God?  With a weekend that beautiful in the middle of March, how can anyone deny His existence or His hand in our world?
Psalm 8:3-4

Common English Bible (CEB)

³ When I look up at your skies,
at what your fingers made—
the moon and the stars
that you set firmly in place—
⁴ what are human beings
that you think about them;
what are human beings
that you pay attention to them?

Blessings,
Jennifer

Place

Today I did something I am embarrassed to say took me almost a year to do.  I had promised one of my youth last April that I would take her to Barnes and Noble.  I could come up with a bunch of good excuses why I didn't take her before today.  But, the truth is that I should have.  But, if I had taken her before, I might have missed the experiences of today.  So, I'll start from that and go on.
As I was driving to get her this morning, something in my head told me it was a beautiful day and that I should go visit my "happy place" with her on our way to Barnes and Noble.  I talk to my youth regularly about having a place of happiness- of peace and comfort.  I believe everybody has one- even if they don't really realize it or call it that.  If you don't, I encourage you to think about it and find one.
Anyway, by the time I picked her up, I had decided to take her there.  So, we headed to Furnessville.  It's a wonderful trip down memory lane for me- a time of love, family, and peace.  But, I wasn't sure how a teen who had never been there to see it in all it's glory would feel about going to place in the woods where a house used to be.  As we turned down the road, we got to the Schoolhouse Shop.  I decided to stop there first and show her the wonders of the unique store filled with toys, art, antiques, and randomness.  She loved it!  On our way out, I talked to the man at the register.  He remembered my grandma and me and some of the things they bought from her for the shop.  He gave me some pictures and a history of the Schoolhouse shop brochure that they had just made.  Then we went across the street.  I wasn't sure how this would go.  I wanted to check on the grave site.  There is a blue glass bird that my cousin bought and I wanted to make sure it was still ok after the winter.  It was!  And there was a Christmas arrangement someone had left there, too.  The pine had seen better days, but there were several decorations and ribbons that were still intact.  She asked about my grandparents- what they were like.  I shared with her how special they were to me and to everyone.  She asked if they went to church.  I loved that that was something she would think about. 
Since it was a beautiful day, we decided to walk rather than drive the short distance to where the house used to be.  We chatted along the way.  I shared with her about the area, about things that used to be, and about my grandparents.  She shared with me about her grandparents and about her family.  Then, we got to their driveway.  "Here was the driveway, here was the tree I always thought would fall, here was the living room!"  We walked around as if the house and backyard were still there- although there were weeds and branches to deal with.  After talking to an old neighbor who was visiting her old house, we headed back to the car.  Along the way, she picked several flowers that were out already.  "You'll see what I'm going to do with these in a minute", she said.  When we got to the cemetery, she ran inside saying "follow me!"  So, I ran after her.  She got to my grandparents grave and gently laid 2 flowers down over my grandpa's name and 2 over my grandma's.  "I didn't know them, but it was the least I could do.  Afterall, you are you partly because of them."  Then, she gave me a big hug.   And then I knew.  She saw what I saw.  She understands what that place means to me.  She knows what they meant to me.  And, somehow she knew that they loved nature and flowers and would love to have those flowers.  I know they were smiling in that moment. 
One thing I wish is that my grandma would have still been alive when I started youth ministry.  I wish she would have been alive to see what I am doing now and to share that joy with me.  But, today I know she knows.  Today, I know she was there and that I was able to share her with my youth.  And, that means the world to me!  I realize now that I have to share my place with them to help encourage them to find theirs- to give them a chance to find their place of happiness and peace.
Where was God today?  He was the voice in my head telling me it was the right time to go and the right place to go.
“May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in faith so that you overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
Blessings,
Jennifer

Blessed

This morning I had the chance to sleep in.  For a long time, that has been a rare occurrence.  But, my schedule is finally getting regulated from my job change and it seems I now have some mornings free! 
Of course, I woke up at the same time this morning.  But, I fought getting out of bed for awhile. 
I got up and got ready for my day.  And, then, I went to church to work on some planning.  After that, I went to the library to get some video games my teen center "regulars" wanted to play. 
So, what does all of this mean?  As I sat here tonight thinking about my day, I realized that even when I have some free time, I want to spend at least some of it doing what I love- working with teens, planning for my time with them, and doing things to make my time with them the best it can be.  I am blessed to be living doing what I love, what I believe in, and what I believe is God's plan for me. 
So, where was God today?  He was reminding me that I live a very blessed life and I am grateful for each day.
Micah 6:8

The Message (MSG)

⁸But he's already made it plain how to live, what to do,
what God is looking for in men and women.
It's quite simple: Do what is fair and just to your neighbor,
be compassionate and loyal in your love,
And don't take yourself too seriously—
take God seriously.

Blessings,
Jennifer

Spring!

Today I saw something wonderful!  Spring!  There were kids playing outside, people going for walks, and beauty in the air!  I am not a cold weather person.  So, nothing delights me more than the promise of warm weather to come.  I walked outside without even a thought of bringing a coat.  And, my husband told me we have flowers coming up already! 
I love the warm weather when I can enjoy being outside and not freezing- where people are outside enjoying themselves.  Life seems friendlier, people seem friendlier when it's warmer outside.
So, where did I see God today?  I saw him in the promise of spring and beauty and all of his wonderful creations! 
Genesis 1:31

New International Version (NIV)

³¹ God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.

Blessings,
Jennifer

3

You're probably thinking I'm going to write about my upcoming mission trip again. 
Ok- you got me!  Today one of the adults I asked to go let me know he is able to go!  I'm really excited because he is great with youth and it will be great to have him as part of the team!  We have 15 youth with very different personalities going and he has experience with lots of youth both at youth group and campus life.  So, it seems a perfect fit for us.
I knew God would take care of everything.  I feel so blessed to be doing this- and to have God with me every step of the way! 
On another note...
Today my husband had a procedure done to hopefully relieve his back pain.  We might not know for a week or so.  But, I am hopeful that he might have some relief from pain that doesn't include pain meds.  The Dr.  seemed happy with how things went.  So, now it's all in God's hands. 
And on another note...
Yesterday my uncle had surgery.  A few months ago, he had to give up directing the Messiah, something he had done for 46 years.  He was told he would have to just deal with his health condition and learn to live with it.  But, a second opinion and here he is.  His surgery was long and they ended up doing a bypass while they were doing everything else.  But, the surgeon was happy with how it went and now it's on to recovering so he can come home.  Then, he'll be able to live a much more fulfilling life again. 
So, where was God today?  First, He is in the hearts of patients and their families everywhere.  Without God, I never would have made it through any of my husband's health issues.  Having God means I have faith and hope that things will all be ok.  He gives comfort to those who are suffering.
And, God is also with the medical people- doctors, nurses, medical staff who tirelessly work and learn what they can do to help others.
Colossians 3:23-24

New International Version (NIV)

²³ Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, ²⁴ since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving.

Blessings,
Jennifer

Opening

During the first night of Vacation Bible School, I was in charge of the shepherds- mainly youth who would go around with a group and help get them where they were going.  As everyone registered, a boy came in to participate in VBS. I realized he was actually a middle schooler.  So, I asked him if he wanted to be a shepherd instead of one of the participants.  He decided to be a shepherd and he's been coming to church ever since.  He got baptized and joined the church, he has brought his grandma to church, and has been consistently coming to youth events, too.
Today, I was happy to talk to his grandma about him coming on the mission trip since I had another opening.  Somehow, he had missed signing up and I think he just didn't speak up because he thought it would cost more than it does.  But, luckily, we have a very supportive church who sees that it's important for youth to be involved in activities no matter what their financial status is.  They amaze me at how much they support the youth!  Anyway, this afternoon, he came to the Teen Center to bring me all of the paperwork!  I'm so excited to have him on this trip.  It's a great opportunity for him because I know he doesn't travel much and it will be eye opening for him to see how other people live and to see ways in which we can all show Christian love to others.
It's hard to limit who can go on this trip.  Every time I get ready to go on a mission trip, I know it's going to be an amazing experience!  I wish everyone could have a chance to experience that- there's no better feeling than that.  So, it's really tough to know they aren't all able to have that.  But, I must say that I'm really excited about everyone who is going this year.  We have our biggest group yet and I can't wait!
Blessings,
Jennifer

Chaperones

I've been busy planning the details for the upcoming mission trip.  Late last week, I found out 2 of my adults are now unable to go.  This leaves one other adult and myself for 15 teens.  Needless to say, I've been looking for people to replace them since then! 
Earlier this week, I talked with someone who works with teens and has gone on mission trips before.  Yesterday, I talked with someone who works with teens and youth leaders throughout Indiana.  Today, I talked to 2 more adults who have said they are thinking about going if I need them to.
Do I like being only a couple weeks from the trip and not knowing who is going with me?  No!  Am I looking forward to calling the mission trip place tomorrow and telling her I'm changing the roster again?  Absolutely not!  Do I think we'll have to cancel the trip because we don't have enough chaperones?  Definitely not!  I know God is going to put the people who are supposed to be on this trip in the right place.  And, we will all have an amazing week experiencing God's plan!
Blessings,
Jennifer

Pictures

Tonight I was really excited about youth group.  I had pictures of people who would give off a first impression that was typically negative.  They looked rough or scary or dressed provocatively, etc.  But, what these 5 people had in common was that they all did great things.  After the youth split into groups and created a story- history and future- for their pictures, we got back together and they shared them.  Then, I showed videos about the people and the amazing things they had accomplished in their lives.  I had videos for 4 of them but one person was a local person and I didn't have a video.  So, I had some things about her written down.
The point I was hoping to make was that everyone has a story.  And, we can't know the story just by looking at someone.  And, just because someone starts out with a negative story, doesn't mean God can't change it and change them into amazing people.  I'm hoping I got that through to them.  I'm hoping they think of that as we prepare to go on our mission trip and spend a week encountering lots of different people from lots of different places.
So, as we were getting to our last picture, I realized there were people waiting in the other room.  That is when I remembered I had guests coming to share about their mission project.  It was a project to help the mission that was created by the person in our last picture- the one I didn't have a video for!  You would have thought I actually planned it specifically to tie in to our guests.  But, I must admit I hadn't.  Luckily, God had it figured out!
Acts 9:15-16
¹⁵ But the Lord said to Ananias, “Go! This man is my chosen instrument to proclaim my name to the Gentiles and their kings and to the people of Israel. ¹⁶ I will show him how much he must suffer for my name.”
Blessings,
Jennifer

Roundtable

I know I already wrote today.  But, I can't go withput sharing about tonight.  I went to the 4th Drug Roundtable discussion.  After the 3rd one, which was the first I had gone to because it was the first I had heard about, I started thinking about what eventually led to my new job at the Teen Center.  So, I already knew they have a great impact for the community since it led to the Teen Center being reopened!
Tonight was for the teens.  They were invited to come and talk about what they feel, what they think needs to be done, and what they think can be done about it. 
The timing was probably key.  2 weeks ago, a senior died of a heroin overdose.  That was a hard slap in the face to alot of teens that this problem is real.  Even moreso, it was a hard slap in the face to the adults who may not be around it everyday and would not otherwise know what the teens are facing.  But, tonight, City Hall was packed with over 160 people, mainly teens and also concerned adults, who just wanted to talk and listen.  It's sad that something traumatic has to happen for people to open their eyes, but the thing I keep thinking is this.  Here are so many teens hurting and their way of dealing with their grief is to make a difference!  Tonight, teens stood up and talked about how they need to start talking and joining together to be a positive force.  They don't want to be afraid to talk and they don't want to be alone with nothing to turn to but drugs.  What I saw tonight was hope.  Of course, there were those who are losing hope.  But, there were so many more who have hope and I believe they can encourage those who don't.
Someone I didn't know leaned over to me in the beginning of the meeting and said something about satan loving all of this.  But I disagree because tonight these teens were saying they don't want him here!  Tonight they were saying there is more to life than drugs and bad choices.  They have faith and hope.  And, where there is faith and hope, God is there!
Blessings,
Jennifer

Planning

As I get closer to the mission trip, I work on the details.  This year, we'll be spending more time away from the actual mission trip place than we have in the past.  That means more planning.  So, today I called churches to find a place for us to stay 3 nights- 1 on the way there and 2 on the way back.  It started out slow.  I left a lot of messages.  Then I finally got a live person!  I talked to a woman who I later found out was the pastor.  We talked for quite awhile about staying there, things to do while there, and about where we are going on our trip.  It hadn't occurred to me before for some reason, but while talking I decided to ask if there was anything we could do to help their church or neighborhood.  Of course, I want to have some time to let everyone experience the culture of the area, but if we can do that and help I think it's even better!  So, we'll be doing some small things like picking up trash in the neighborhood and painting on Friday morning. 
Just before I called churches, I got an e-mail letting me know we are receiving a scholarship from the United Methodist Women!  That covers the expense I found out we would have by staying at a church for 3 days and leaves a little left for additional transportation expenses since we now need two 15 passenger vans.  Awesome!
So, where was God today?  He was working with me on this mission trip because He knows I can't do it by myself.  It has to be His mission trip- not mine.
Blessings,
Jennifer

Waiting List

I found out today that there are 4 extra spaces available for our mission trip.  I had asked to be put on a waiting list if more spots opened up.  The bad part was that I have to let them know tomorrow if I'm using them.  So, I called the people on my list.  2 aren't able to go.  So, that left 2 open spots.  One teen took a spot because he had been on my waiting list.  Since there is a spot, his dad might go, which would be great.  The other open spot was filled by a teen that has recently started coming, but I see great things in him.  I am really excited about these 2 teens being added to the trip!  I'm pretty sure God wants them there! 
That leaves my other open spot.  The teen I mentioned yesterday said he really wants to go.  Unfortunately, I didn't see him today.  I'm hoping to see him tomorrow.  I think it would be a great experience for him and for the group.  If he can't go, I'll trust God and know he's not ready yet.  If he can go, I'll trust that he is.
So, where was God today?  He opened up new doors for our trip and each day I'm more and more excited about what's in store for us!  I can't believe it's only a few weeks away!
Blessings,
Jennifer

Searching

I wasn't expecting a whole lot tonight.  I planned to have the youth work on setting up the auction items throughout the church.  On my way there, I thought Dairy Queen sounded really good.  So, I took the scenic route to church.  I saw two teens I know from church.  One has been coming for awhile and the other has been a couple times lately.  They both come to the teen center, too.  I chatted with them for a minute and asked them if they were coming to youth group at 5.  They said they were.  I drove away hoping they were, but not quite positive I'd see them. I got to Dairy Queen and found they are still running a special- buy 1 Blizzard get another for .99.  So, how could I not get another one?  So, I left Dairy Queen with 2 Blizzards and 3 spoons hoping I'd run into them again.  I did.  And, when I gave them the Blizzard, they were so excited!  That was .99 well spent! 
At 5, sure enough, they were there.  The one who has been coming for awhile had to go home and eat a family dinner, but since he lives across the street from the church he said he'd be back.  The other one stayed for youth group.
We spent an hour running around organizing the auction items.  Of course, having a large group of teens all running around working on things, they sometimes tend to get distracted.  And, they did.  Not all of them, though, which frustrated some of them.  The "new kid" (for a lack of a better term) was distracted easily.  Of course, he doesn't know the church, our regular routine, or the rest of the group very well so it was to be expected.  And, typically, when teens first start coming, they are either very quiet and reserved or very loud and like to show off for attention.  He chose the loud and show off route, saying wild things just to get attention.
Fast forward to the high school time.  The auction was set up, most of the middle schoolers had left, although several were still waiting for rides.  I had planned to talk about how they were dealing with the teen that had overdosed a week ago, and then talk about things they were dealing with.  I decided to use a song we've been singing lately, I Refuse, by Josh Wilson.  It talks about refusing to live like we don't care, refusing to say another empty prayer, refusing to just let things go because God is wanting us to help make a change for the better.  So, after reading a few verses of that, I asked them what they are refusing to do.  One said tolerating underage drinking, one said drugs in school, etc.  It got to my turn and I said I refuse to ever give up on people- that I always have hope for them.  I opened a whole new discussion.  Several talked about the "new kid" and his friend who has been around awhile.  They thought the 2 shouldn't be at the church because they don't always make the best choices.  Others talked about how Jesus went to the sinners and what better place for them to be than church.  The discussion lasted 15 minutes or so but ended abruptly when the "new kid" walked in.  We invited him to join us and luckily, he hadn't heard the debate.  So, to change the subject, I asked him how it happened that he started coming to the church.  "I'm trying to figure out if God is real."  He started talking about how he had been going to lots of different churches and had heard lots of different things- about how God had magical powers- was he like superman-how is he supposed to figure it out?  Then, several of the group started to share about their experiences with God and how they had figured out He existed in their lives.  It was a beautiful time of sharing with this teen who just minutes before they had been ready to not include.  What they had perceived as someone there just to goof around and cause trouble was really there because he's searching for God!  How awesome!  He has no idea that He was part of God's "magic" right then. 
But, God wasn't finished.  I took him home and he happened to leave his skateboard in my car.  He only lives a few blocks from me, so I walked over to give it to him.  I got to his house and he was outside with his mom, who I hadn't met.  She asked me what church he had been going to and when he was there.  I talked to her awhile about the activities her son had been going to both at the church and teen center.  She seemed happy he was going to church and that she had met me and knew who he was with.  So, I'm guessing God needed us to meet.
We talked during youth group about how sometimes doing the right thing is not the easy thing.  This scripture seems to be perfect for tonight.  It's not easy for teens to stand up against teens, drugs, violence.  It's not easy for teens to come to new places to meet new people.  And, it's not easy for teens who are comfortable with what they've got to accept new people they don't understand.  Luckily, that's where God comes in- to help us!
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”” Joshua 1:9
Blessings,
Jennifer

Auction

This morning, I went to the church to organize things for our mission trip fundraiser tomorrow.  We are having our 3rd annual silent auction.  At the beginning of the week, I had very few things.  Today, as I was printing the sheet for each item, I realized I now have over 75 items!  And, I know I'll have more items tomorrow morning!  I feel so blessed to have so many people supporting the youth.  There are people from the church who donated, businesses, and people who are not even connected with the church.  It really is a great thing to see people supporting youth who are doing something positive for others.
I'm nervous about raising enough money for our travel expenses.  That's what the fundraiser is for, along with the chili lunch tomorrow.  But, I know that God will take care of it all.  I'm counting on Him to help the chili lunch run smoothly tomorrow!
So, where was God today?  Actually, He's been working for awhile to help us get to Baldwin, LA.  This is just another step along our journey and He's right there with us.
Blessings,
Jennifer